The beginning of an end =)

Last nite, Emak called. So i've been ceramah(ed) by Emak for almost an hour. goosshh.. to be franked, watery eyes it is. kind like ermm.. muhasabah before entering the new year lah gitu. mixed feeling i can say.

Ayah asked me to hire him as my driver. Then Emak said..

yeah! like papadom he surely is! hehe

how lovely! i don't really mind if my daddy play a role as what afdlin played in papadom. seriously! cute apa! well.. i don't trust any other men except for my daddy! So Emak was talking about berkorban and pengorbanan and the only thing i can think of and responded to her adalah TERKORBAN. Emak apa lagi, terus kasi aku peluru bertubi tubi. Blame my mulot yang lebih laju dari minda. Thank you.

after the phone conversation ended, i start thinking... about this year. the whole of this year. about all that i've been doing. all the craziness, all the sweetness, all the bitterness, all the happiness.. and all in all.. i thanked Alloh the most for such a beautiful year i have. all those single moment i've been through and each and every person i've met; worth to be written in my history for sure.

Today is the last day of the year 2010. This year has been a real something to me mashaAlloh. I've learnt a lot that it makes me knew myself even better hamdoliLlah. i can say all these lesson will somehow makes me a stronger and even a better person enshaAlloh.

in this final day of my quarter life year.. i realized that i've learnt the true meaning of life so far.. and obviously, the inner conflict is the winner of the year! haha.. but above all... the only thing that i can say is that, i survived hamdoliLlah =)

All the bitter sweet memories will remain as a very good reminder in my private history book. And as what Emak always ingatkan, hold no grudge nor vengeance, be nice to people, forgive and forget. oh! and SMILE plus bersyukurlah!! =)

To all those hearts that hurts by me.. my sincere apology goes to you. truly sorry i am. mudah mudahan Alloh will repay you with the very best reward enshaAlloh. Let us forgive and forget.. and let us move on. =)

Let us plant the most beautiful trees in our jannah by doing dzkir.. saying good words.. inviting hearts to return to Alloh ta'ala.. and by spending in the way of Alloh..

I make du'a that Alloh will grant us all His blessing upon our journey towards the days ahead and mudah mudahan Alloh will grant us with husnul khaatimah. ya Alloh, please please please grant for us a good ending..

I make du'a that Alloh will accept from us our 'amal throughout this blessed year.

and I make du'a that Alloh will grant us forgiveness ya Robb.

I make du'a that Alloh will keep us strong and patient in facing our test of life.

and AGAIN.. I make du'a that Alloh will grant us with the best abode in dunya. akhirah. jannah. enshaAlloh.

BEGIN WITH THE END IN MIND

happy new year all..

have a HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY new year

and MUCH MUCH MUCH BETTER..

than this year

=)

p/s : age is NOT JUST A NUMBER. it is in fact a reminder. okay fine it is just a number.. but at least it works on me - as a reminder - for now.