i want to remember this #1

i got scammed.

as far as i remember, this is my very first time and mudah mudahan will be my only scammed experience ever.

i am very disappointed pastilah kan! but personally, the fact that i was scammed wasn't the issue that disappoint me most tapi what's beyond it.

what had happened today reminds me of the then me. dulu sangat dulu. 

i used to be someone that whenever something wrong happens, in the end i will reflect it to myself. i stand so firm with the moto "hablu min Alloh; hablu min annas" which says that if you have problem with human, its most probably because your relationship with Alloh is not so good. 

e.g, if a friend (not even a close one pun. it just happen that i know his/her name while passing by dataran sains contohnya) did bad things, i will take it as "i am might have been doing wrong deeds which doesn't please Alloh and thus as the result, i couldn't stop them from doing so" thingy.

later when a friend told me that its like one out of many non-believers culture (which i couldn't remember yang mana satu) where they take the blame to themselves while Islam didn't teaches us that thus slowly i stop that kind of thinking. 

but when today's incident happen, i started to have that kind of thinking.. again after soo soo long of leaving it behind. 

so now, the beyond thingy.

but before that, just a little intro on how the idea came by. 

once, my mom got herself a mini-market (before she sells it off to my paternal uncle due to i don't know why. haha). so, during those days.. there's few incident lah kan.. macam;

1. counterfait money
2. intruders/burglar
3. stubborn debtors
4. thief

so every time we're crossing by those, emak kan.. of course lah she's sad but she always tells us that worry not for which ever happen to us tu, is actually either;

1. simply a test.
2. not so gentle reminder on safety precautions.
3. kafarah dosa/pembersihan harta

but more than often she'll refer those to #3. emak selalu cakap; 

it's okay. mungkin dulu when i am a lot younger, i never bother if say i received the balance more than what i  should get waktu shopping. bahkan, lagi happy ada. macam getting a bonus. hihi. so this is some kind of pembersihan harta gitew.

so, to cut it short.. emak ni kan.. tenang selalu sebab she sees everything positively. happy go lucky lah kiranya.

now, back to today's incident after not-so-short intro from my moms'.. i can just beristighfar panjang mengenangkan that maybe, dulu unconsciously i've terpakai/terambek/terjanji/terlebih-kurang bayar watsoever terhadap somebody yang demi Tuhan i have no idea who's the real unlucky person are.

Aku cuma mampu berdoa semoga s/he would not meet any harm from my carelessness and may due to his/her lost yang berpuncanya oleh aku ini, Alloh swt will reward him/her with something yang much much better and please to their eyes and make them at ease mudah mudahan.

Dan mudah mudahan juga mereka akan mengampuni dosa dosa ku dan turut mendoakan yang baik baik juga buatku dan ahli keluarga ku.

well, you never know people. and please don't you ever try to compare other people's situation with yours when it comes to their difficulties or whatsoever because more often than not as i said tadi.. you or i should say WE'll never know how suffer they can be just because of RM 1 and just because we think that we know them best.

and to the scammer, aku halalkan duit tu. and i believe dat i am not the only one yang terkena. tapi ketua kampung cakap ada kebarangkalian batch ni aku sorang ja yang terkena karena alangkah tidak bijaknya pergi bayar before work done, satu. pulak tu no receipt received pulak. nice!

kesimpulannya, i really hope that beliau tidak menggunakan duit tersebut untuk ibu bapa, anak isteri dan kaum keluarganya naudhubiLlah dan mudah mudahan dia segera kembali kepada Tuhan dengan sebenar benar keinsafan. Aamin

Allohu ta'ala 'alam.